White Noise.
The above videos are samples from various  video clips of White Noise. as seen in an installation. Click on the line underneath the player to choose clips to view. 
Excessive adrenalin can be experienced as a "White Noise", an interference in who we are, mentally and physically. This can be very exciting or debilitating and may often be both. In this, my BA Fine Art project at Plymouth University,  I explored how intensity and transgression of limits in our environment and culture affect how we live. I also enquired into how this pattern may have been being mirrored in my life, potentially causing an imbalance and sometimes illness. I wondered if it was possible to revisit these qualities and the stresses this caused, to realign this energy within the everyday rhythmic cycles of life. At the time I was a carer, ran my own business, another creative partnership and also supported my partners business. I wondered how to transform this debilitating energy overload and what it was doing to my body in the form of stress induced illnesses. From a combination of my creative processes, research and personal development work I explored how unconscious patterns can be brought to light and transformed into something positive.

To create this installation I spent  time by the River Dart videoing the ebb and flow of the tidal waters at different times of day and night ranging from darkest night, to full moonlight, to brilliant sunlight. Digitally manipulating the videos I captured enabled me to create an edited, looped video intended to affect the viewer. My intention was to invite the viewer to question how they experience varying intensities of light and energy. To notice when they are affected emotionally and physically, by too much or too little. To notice when the ability to be centred is lost and when found, to consider what needs to be re-centred, re-balanced and either re-energised or slowed down. This presence and awareness observes the loop of intensities as it flows through and around us and offers the opportunity  to explore how not to be swept away in its current. 

The Guest House.

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

some momentary awareness

who violently sweeps your house

empty of it's furniture

still treat each guess honourably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from within.

Jalaluddin Rumi.

from Rumi: Selected Poems,

translated by Coleman Barks with John Moynce, A. J. Arberry, Reynold Nicholson

(Penguin Books, 2004)